I came to worthychat as a fluke (God may have had something else in mind). I had tried a chatroom one time before, and thought that it was crazy, I wondered how anyone could keep up. One night I had nothing better to do, and I wondered if any Christian chat rooms existed, and what were they like? I Googled for Christian chatrooms, and found Worthy. People greeting me were friendly. I do not know how I got into the topic, but I remember talking about Romans 7, how that passage represented my life and thoughts. I do not remember much about the conversation, other than the fact that a male Worthy admin, ministered to me, I had not expected that.
I came back a few times, intenting to involve myself in theological discussions, I saw myself as being a thought catalyst, one who would make people think about their own positions, I actually had an agenda of sorts, that was the role I thought was my “job”.
Things did not work out exactly like that though. People sometimes say that life is what happens, while you are making other plans. I find that often, it is God that happens to you while you are making other plans. Sometimes, God has a different plan than we envision, and we need to be open to that. I believe that if we as Christians, were more open to God’s plans, there would not be a single divorce among Christian couples.
It was not too long, before I found myself in the position of administrator at Worthy, that was not in my plans. I found that before I was an admin, and especially afterward, that many people would confide in me, with amazing honesty, especially younger believers, and I often found myself in the role of counselor, something that I never envisioned and if someone had told me before hand, I would have dismissed them as a kook. I discovered, that not only did I have some aptitude for it, but I found it extremely rewarding. I never expected that either.
Admins find themselves in the position of moderating conversation, protecting the innocent, trying to be Bible Answer man, prayer warrior, counselor, defender of the faith, evangelist, etc. When you have to do these things, you cannot make everyone happy. Speak the truth, someone will not like it. We get ridculed, attacked, blamed, and slandered. We are privy to peoples very personal issues, some are very sad and tragic, others are wonderful stories of victory, blessing, and God’s intervention.
Again, none of this was expected by me. Much of it is hard on us, we try not to let it show. One thing I can say about it, it is very different, that it looked like from the chatters point of view.
I can say without reservation, that it is one of the most rewarding things I have done. While I hate it when I handle a situation poorly and feelings are hurt, I accept that as a part of the job, and the arrows thrown at us, I accept gladly, for such is the life of a Christian. If you are not getting some kind of attack, I think you are not doing your job as a Christian.
I would not trade this for the world. Never expected that either. I pray with people, cry with people, encourage people, help people understand the mysteries of God, as best I can. Never had as much opportunity to do such things before Worthy.
The biggest thing is, that I have discovered many members of my large family in Christ here, I love you all, and am thankful for you, you minister to me, and teach me daily. You add purpose to my life, and another opportunity to serve my Lord. It doesn’t get any better than this in this life, thank you all.