Let me warn you, that I concocted this blog just to see if anyone really reads these, so, it may not be worthwhile. If you do not want to risk wasting your time, please offer at least a “.” in a reply, just to show that you actually looked.
Now, what is this split personality?
I was musing, that I seem to switch modes of operation. I notice than some people appear to have characteristics of their personalities, which are always in operation, but the ratios seem to vary with the mood. Perhaps I appear that way to others. However, inside, it feels as though I am switching to a new personality, when my ratio changes. Now, to be sure, I am not talking about a thing where there are distinct personalities, with different names, experiences etc. not the pathological type of split personality, but I do feel as though I am a somewhat different person. I can probably illustrate my own view of myself in an outline form:
Omegaman:
A. The Person
1. The Friend
2. The Consumer
3. The Researcher
4. The Intellectual
5. The Servant
6. The Problem Solver
7. The Employee
8. The Recreator
B. The Christian
1. The Church Goer
a. The Worshiper
b. The Giver
c. The Student
2. The Worthychat Admin
a. The Lay Theologian
b. The Comedian
c. The Counselor
d. The Authoritarian
e. The Prayer Warrior
f. The Chat Buddy
3. The Day to Day Christian
a. the honest person
b. the nice guy
c. the helper
4. The Disciple
a. learner
b. the follower
C. The Citizen
1. The Law Abider
2. The Neighbor
3. The Political Activist/Voter
D. The Family Man
1. The Husband
a. The Lover/Friend
b. The Provider
c. The Nurturer
d. The Leader
2. The Father
a. The Dad
b. The Provider
c. The Nurturer
d. The Leader
e. The Disciplinarian
3. The More Distant Relative
Now, I warned you that this was a concocted blog. I had no idea where this was going to go. I think that is what blogs are actually supposed to be, just writing as you think, a journal of thoughts, they are not essays where you set out to communicate a subject.
I actually don’t get the idea of a blog. I mean, I understand what you are supposed to do, but I do not have any clue WHY you are supposed to do it. Are you supposed to use this to look back on your thoughts and see how you have changed? Personally, I do not care to look back, the race is the the finish, the past, for me, stays in the past.
I have looked at a few blog sites, and what I see is mostly people, who seem to have a need to talk about themselves, and find others, willing to listen. I note that a lot of them, could use a tuneup, but instead, seem to want to find others with the same malfunctions, to help them not feel so alone, not so isolated as an oddity of nature. This gives them a sense of normalcy. I think that is is the wrong way to feel normal, but at the same time, these malfuntions are VERY normal.
Others on blogs, not as many, seem to be full of themselves, and need to share their greatness with others, either that, or in writing it out, they are attempting to convince themselves of their own greatness, but in either case, it strikes be as an attempt to feel better about themselves.
I may be way off base on the above points, and I certainly do not expect you to accept my guesses about it as gospel, not do I mean to insult any of you who may be bloggers.
So, why am I blogging? When George informed me that there was going to be a blog of admins, the first thought that entered my head was: “Why on earth would I want to do that?” So I asked that question of George. As I recall, he replied that it would be a great way for for WorthyChatters to get to know the administrators at Worthy. O.K. Fair enough. Having thought about that, it seemed to me that writing a biography would be more to the point. I have no interest in doing that though. As a Christian, my first concern should be about others, not about myself. So, what can I do on this blog that might me useful to you?
While I was writing the above, outline, I was thinking that I would rate myself on a scale in each of those catergories. I thought about applying the Omegaman scale. If you are not familiar with the Omegaman scale, I will educate you. The scale is a Zero to Ten Scale. It is very difficult to reach Zero or ten one the scale. For example, if you asked about the subject of living a spiritual life, you might rate Hitler or Judas Escariot as a 1, and perhaps The apostle Paul or Mother Teresa as a 9. The thought of rating myself publicly, was too depressing to consider any further (I have an unwritten rule about not being depressed).
I decided that knowing how I see myself in this area, will not benefit you in any way, and would only serve to humiliate myself. While I could use more humility, I do not need humiliation. What is the difference? The first comes from inside, the latter from outside. However, I did notice that considering these areas and these ratings, did prove to be a good exercise in introspection, a way to evaluate things about myself, that I do not consider often.
So, as a community service, I offer you the chance, to make up your own self description outlines, and after you figure out what things make up you personality(s), have to courage to honestly score yourself, using the Omegaman scale or a scale based on letter grades A through F, or whatever you find illuminating. Pray about those areas, and purpose to improve, if you want a challenge.
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